Sometimes you just can’t tell anybody how much you really feel, not because you don’t know why, not because you don’t know your purpose, not because you don’t trust them. But because you never really find the right words to make them understand. And sometimes, the one who seems the strongest, is the one who is in most need of a hug.


Another trip

Currently I'm on short trip to Pantai Timur until this coming Monday and will enjoy my Xmas holiday there. If you bump me, don't hesitate to say HI :)


Long way to go. I missed you.

Take note: 

He is Leeteuk, leader of Super Junior. Currently, he is serving in military as part of his responsibility as South Korea citizen. Please feel free to click the RED BUTTON [X] on your right side if you feel annoy with this entry. 

I am missing him. Went to Super Junior M "Super Asia Showcase" few days back, reminds me of him and Super Junior will be here next month for GDA Awards without him, the cheerful leader. We, ELF, will waiting for you, oppa. Please come back as a better Park JungSoo (his real name). 

[INFO] Tanslation to Leader's letter to fans ^^

To. The fan that I love! My everything(,) E.L.F..

I am Super Junior's Leeteuk!!,) I am soldier-in-training number 85(,) Park Jungsoo!!

Has everyone been well? I passed from Uijeongbu and is now doing well with brothers that are 10, 11 years younger than me at Baekmashin training centre.

From suju's leader to now(,) taking on a role as a company leader soldier in the army.
As expected(,) even at this place(,) I can feel the huge popularity!^-^

I had a lot of uneasiness and fear before coming in here but now that it's actually happening(,) it feels like its nothing

and also(,) thank you for the hand-written and internet letters! While reading the letters word by words clearly(,) its not once or twice that I had strong feelings. Thank you.

Its something that I am always thankful for. Even the day when I enlisted(,) there was a awesome crowd. As expected(,) the best!!

And also(,) from the 7th anniversary to the College Scholastic Ability exams. I am sorry that I couldn't take care of those one by one personally.

Do you know that the more I work(,) the more I want to meet you all? I miss doing the world tour with our members and being able to see the blue lightsticks and hearing the cheering sounds.

Ah! and also(,) the DVD that is selling in Japan is number one! and also(,) boys in city.
To the people awaiting to see my image(,) I am preparing so please anticipate!!

The end of year award ceremonies that are left(,) It would be good if everyone can smile brightly and end it well!

Really miss you and miss you and miss you and really want to see you see you see you have to be happy and healthy! Like it has been said that you don't smile because you are happy but because smiling is a happy thing..
Everyone(,) be well!! E.L.F-ya!! I love you...

From. leader teuk!!

(Cr: @teukables)


Successful project!

Alhamdulillah. It went well as planned. Kudos to the team members! And those who bought the t-shirts, of course! The aim of this project is to send rice wreath support for Blue Night's concert in Korea (15th and 16th December 2012).

I can't wait for the t-shirt! Jyeah!! I'll join other event in future, InshaAllah. More detail about this project, you can read here. Well, in case if you're curious ^^

p/s : better for me to contribute in this FANCLUB than certain 'FANCLUB' :)



"Kalau rindukan seseorang, baca Al-Fatihah sambil tangan didada. Dan berzikir kepada Allah dengan niat semoga dia merasai rindu kita padanya."

-Ustaz Don

Yes! Been missing my cotton candy so much. I was wondering what he's doing every single hour day but I know he's doing well based on what he tweeted everyday. Wishing you a better day and I'll pray the best for you. InshaAllah.

Dear Allah, hilangkan rasa rindu ini. Kau tetapkanlah imanku. Andai dia yang tertulis di Luh Mahfuz-Mu, aku terima Ya Allah. Sesungguhnya, dia ciptaan-Mu yang cukup sempurna dimataku. Andai dia bukan yang Kau janjikan, Kau tariklah nikmat rindu yang sedang aku rasakan ini dan bantulah hamba-Mu untuk melupakan dirinya.



Video: 2AM The Way of Love in Malaysia 2012 - Bila Terasa Rindu (Dafi AF) cover

Still having major withdrawal syndrome! Muahahah! Jinwonieeeeee!

If they can respect and appreciated our local talent, why not OUR local talent do the same too? Stop boo-ing and complaining why we, K-Poppers loved k-pop so much.

Learn from them and do well in future. You've no idea what they have been though during their trainee days which is before their debut. Can you imagine living with 20+ peoples in a small house including the manager oppa (brother)? They even shared foods together, stayed miles away from the family members, trained days and nights etc.

All their efforts and hard works had been paid yet all the bittersweets memories they left behind is still remain in their heart.

So, to the local talent (you know who you are) who is point out k-pop is not good for the industry, grow up please! Study what k-pop is and you'll know. Jangan nak cakap your music is good enough because not everyone is please by your music. Take note.

Sila sedar diri before say anything that might hurt other peoples feeling. Please remember, music is universal so everyone have their own right to choose whatever genre of music they want to hear or follow. If you don't like it, keep it in your heart. Will ya?


Shout Awards 2012 incident.

NOTE : I'm not there so this is basically my friend's point of view as she was there during the function.

"Things that happened during Shout Awards during Vixx and Nu'est on stage.

I'm not going to explain every single details, I will only focus on Nu'est and Vixx.

So we went to the shout awards that held in Sunway Lagoon where VIXX and Nu'est was invited as the International Act from the organizer.

Event started around 9, and we went in around 8 something, and by the time we went in, they were showing an interview session during the red carpet that held earlier before the event start. Coincidentally at that time, they were showing Nu'est interview and I can hear "boo" from the crowds (mainly came from those who are not an avid K-pop fans), and Vixx interview was next after Nu'est, and they got booed as well.

Most of Vixx and Nu'est fans was alresdy in Screamers Zone (an area secluded for volunteers(?)) and they were at the most front area, while me and some other K-pop fans was in the Public Zone where we have to 'fight' with the boos and antis noises.

After few awards and performances, Vixx was the first to be on stage to present an award. I can't remember which award they presenting cos too busy screaming our lungs out supporting the boys, (LOL) but I can hear they were saying "Malaysia Bagus!" (literally translated to Malaysia Nice / Good Malaysia). But some uneducated people are just being plain stupid and don't know how to show some respect just booed around when they were on stage, which some things goes to Nu'est when they're presenting an award too.

My deep sorry goes to Vixx especially cos they're the earliest act who presenting and performing, and I even saw some objects flying to the stage where they were performing, lucky enough it doesn't hit any of the members. =.="

They were also some inappropriate manners showed by the crowds during Vixx's performance. Me and my 2 other friends had to screamed out like mad just to cover down the boos, and I guess we were very lucky to stand next to few other Vixx fans and we cheered for them...

During commercial break time, the production made an announcement and warned everyone for not throwing an object to the stage. I bet the crews realized the objects flying then...

Nu'est was the closing act performer for the night and I think they were lucky cos most of the non-kpop-fans slowly left the venue. They didn't come forward to the end of the stage and I think that is due to the incident happened earlier to Vixx.

I never felt this shameful towards Malaysia citizens and this is my first time feeling this. As a true Malaysia myself, I am apologizing to Vixx and Nu'est and also to their fans out there for the incident and shameful act happened during the show.

Malaysia K-pop fans love you guys and do comeback for a K-POP SHOW ONLY next time. >_< *90 degree bow*

P/S: sorry for any grammatical error...i'm not that good in english and i'm typing this at freaking 4.00am. LOL.

P.P.S: Kudos to those who knows the true meaning of RESPECT, even they're not a K-Pop fans.

P.P.P.S: This is all based on what I saw and heard..."

-Tyra Rahman

So sad T____T I feel her because as what Malay's always quote; cubit peha kanan, peha kiri terasa. You can make your own judgement once you read this, right? So, who do you think uneducated here? K-Poppers or bloody morons?

Its not them who want to come here, they were invited by the organizer. That is what Malaysians don't understand. Sigh :(


The hardest part when we're in love

Love is acceptance. When you love someone you let them into your heart, and that's why it surely hurts so much when we lose someone we love, because we lose a part of ourselves :')

- Gossip Girl


Syazwani and Haziq Engagement Day [010912]

This was happened few months ago and since I just got the official pictures from Waniey so yeah, here we go! Remember this?

Macam mana nak mula eh? I’m happy for both of you! Ahah! Tetiba :’)

Actually Waniey cakap nak bertunang masa nak pergi kenduri akikah anak Jannah. Terkejut gak lah tapi buat-buat relax! Yelah, kawan nak bertunang, apa yang kau rasa? Tersiksa gak lah jiwa raga sebab tak boleh nak share dengan kawan yang lain since dia jemput kawan yang terapat jak. Hihi.

I went to the ceremony with Rabia and Nia. Dah ler lambat, dengan muka tak malu lepas salam mak Waniey terus naik atas jumpa Waniey. Sampai-sampai photographer dah suruh posed. Gila ah! Duduk pun tak lagi terus bergambar. Biasalah, budak muka tak malu memang macam tuh :p

Fair and square! Wira and Putra. Nia tuh kawan Rabia :)

Lama gak ah duduk dalam bilik Waniey since Balqis, Yana and Yam dah turun bawah dulu untuk update kitaorang. Kira teman Waniey lah before majlis. Masa nih kau halakan phone camera kat Waniey, dia rela. Ahah! So, apalagi?!

Kan dah cakap :)

All I can say is she’s so beautiful on that day! Never in my life see her in not-so-heavy make up! Fabulous!

Rombongan Haziq sampai masa kitaorang tengah sibuk bergambar kot.

And since we don’t know what happened downstairs, we just sat in the room diam-diam. The only thing that I remembered is when someone panggil Waniey untuk turun.

The discussion between the two families which is I missed it!

The hantaran's :)

From Waniey

From Haziq

 The moment! *cries*

She's beautiful, isn't?


Best friend for 9 years!

Sesi photography berlarutan sampai dah tak tau nak pose macam mana *cewah. After that sesi makan plak which is the best part lah kan before balik. Hihi. Tapi lepas makan sambung bergambar lagi sebab masa majlis sedang berlangsung, ramai yang nak bergambar dengan princess of the day plus photographer pun okay jak melayan :p

Alhamdulillah, she is Haziq’s fiancĂ©e now. I’m so happy for you, babe! Semoga berkekalanlah hendaknya. Gaduh-gaduh tuh adatlah. Hihi. Tuan tanah nak cakap lelebih pun tak mampu sebab tuan tanah pun belum lalui cuma hanya mampu cakap, AI TAK SABAR NAK TUNGGU YOUR BIG DAY!! Ahah! ^^

Congrats once again, Waniey & Haziq!

Tetiba ai plak rasa nak alami apa yang Waniey alami. Nas, jom kita tunang! Muahahahha! *mau kena pelangkung dengan abah

Oh, by the way,

Love you!

p/s: pictures courtesy by Waniey, Nia and myself


Off meatball and snooker

There is a day when I really craving for meatball. Suggest it to Pooi Kuan and dia sutuju so here we go!

Then off to snooker. Told ya, I'm such a loser. Main pun macam hape ntah. Oh ya, no picture as I was so busy tried so hard to hit the balls. Muahahahah!

Meet my new friend in white shirt. Yang depan tuh sah-sah Pooi Kuan :) Masa nih dah nak balik dah, tak sempat nak panggil bergambar dah terjah escalator -_-


First try

Definitely not for her but me! Muahahahah! I'm proudly say, I'm such a loser at this game and only rely on luck :p

Anyway, thanks Fane, Pooi Kuan and Jie Yin for this lovely necklace. All the way from Bangkok yaw!~ ^_^


An evening with durian

A peaceful Saturday evening with Dina while stalked handsome swimming instructors. Ahhh~ Bliss :p


Bila sesekali pulang :p

Meatball kena buli, 6 pieces for each person - Spongy and me. Ahah! Siapa suruh beraya lama sangat kat OZ sana tuh :p Tak tunggu apa dah, buli tetap buli.

Sorry meatball. You know I love you, right? ^^


Auni's akikah

Thanks Jannah for the invitation. To baby Auni (Jannah's daughter), be a good daughter to mom and dad. Grow healthy. Auntie Azie love you so much!


Cerita raya yang dah basi - part 2


Okay, sambungan cerita raya. Memang suka buat part part nih. Ahah! LOL :p


This was last minute planned actually. On the night before, Ekin asked it is okay if dia nak datang beraya so I told my mom and she told my aunties so ended up terus jadi pot luck raya. Petang tuh pegi mydin kejap, beli pape yang patut then masak.

IbuTie bawak nasi impit, kuah lodeh dengan ayam masak merah while IbuTeh bawak paprik ayam and asam pedas which I can't remember it's either ikan or daging tetel. Nonie pulak bawak KFC. And the rest, bawak perut! Ahah!

Our last minute pot luck menu :) Alhamdulillah. Tuan rumah cuma masak sayur campur dengan nugget jak. Hihi

Cousins! Nampak tak KFC tuh? Banyak woo Nonie beli :')


Nih lagi satu last minute planned! It started with Rabee's phone call and ended up beraya gak. Ahah! All thanks goes to Rabee since she's the one who suggested it :) Sempat beraya kat rumah Waniey jak then they came to my house pulak.

Disebabkan last minute, tak sempat nak masakkan pape untuk dorang. Uhuh! Sorry girls. Next time jangan last minute sangat eh if not makan kuih raya jak. Ahah!

Malam tuh pulak pergi beraya kat rumah Kak Nurul. No picture since the kids semua sibuk nak transfer lagu. Uhuh! Anyway, thanks kak Nurul for the yummy nasi ayam.


Baraan! Every year punya routine gak. And again. Tak banyak gambar sebab setting semua lari. Urghh!! Sedihhh!

Team PINK of the day! Yeay! Qyna jak yang lain tema, if not dah completed dah group kita orang :(

And since tahun nih takde langsung gambar team 1990's, jadi 'madu' sekejap pun bolehhh. Ahah! :p Nampak tak Qyna yang in blue color tuh? Kan dah cakap, dia sorang jak yang lari dari tema. Oh, masa nih pun dah last minute gak. Relatives yang lain dah nak gerak ke rumah auntie yang lain.

Hanif tuh pun kebetulan masuk dapur sebab tengok adik dia lagi sorang tak keluar-keluar tuh yang panggil ambik gambar terus! Kira bribe dia ah so Seha tak kena marah dalam kereta. Ahah!

This is baby Akmal. My auntie and mom said, my eldest brother looked like him masa baby dulu. Hihi :p Oh, nih dekat Sepang dah. Masa nih dah split, one team kat Bangi and the other one kat Sepang sebab tuh tak banyak gambar.

By the way untuk hari tuh saja berjaya ternak lemak dengan successful! Mana tak nya, menu jak ada nasi lemak, mee rebus, bread pudding, dadih, bihun sup, satay etc! Sampai dah tak ingat dah ada menu apa lagi. Ahah!


Went to rumah mak angkat abang dengan relative. Best sebab dapat tempe free and makan mee rebus lagi! Weee~ Then pergi makan ABC and satay (again) then spent some quality time with the family.

Abang bought new helicopter and all of us was dragged to the park near to Masjid Shah Alam. Ahah! #failed

Raya anak bandar, memang begini. Habis pusing rumah relatives, lepak mamak or park or shopping mall. Kau ada?


It's Malaysia's independent day! Nothing better to do so we went to IbuTeh's place at Sepang. I was so amazed with her house. Lawaaaaa! After 2 plates of mee goreng, IbuTeh melayan Mira and me bergambar.

Kalau boleh semua sudut of her house nak suruh kita orang bergambar. Thank God dapat makcik yang rajin melayan anak buah. Hihi

Since IbuTie is fasting, we waited there until Maghrib. Nothing much we do. Mak mak bergossip while anak anak watched the tv's.

After Maghrib tuh Cik Zul bawak makan kat somewhere around Sepang gak. Nasi lemak ayam dara! Don't ask me what's the different between normal chicken with ayam dara. I've totally no idea! Ahah!

Biasalah azie, makan pandai but to differentiate it totally failed! The only thing that I know is, ayam dara nih macam anak dara sunti. Ahah! Well, that's what my dad told me :')


Last day of raya. Went to Sepang (again) for the very last open house. This time around went to Umi Ani's place pulak. No picture as I went there almost 9 to 10pm so malas nak bergambar.

I had nasi beriyani and satay (again!) but then sambung makan kuih raya while bergossip. Lama sangat tak jumpa dorang.

Well, that is how I spent my raya! Actually ada lagi, I went to spongy and some friend's open houses but gambar belum ambik from spongy so nanti nanti kalau rajin update lagi pasal raya which is memang takkan update. Ahah!

Oh, meatball joined kita orang beraya after 10/09/12 so memang banyak gambar since dia memang kaki camera -_-'


New family addition

Welcome love!

Muhammad Haqief Arryan. 

Auntie can't wait to hold you!!


Cerita raya yang dah basi


Macam mana nak mula eh. Lama sangat tak menulis, terus hilang semua skills. Ahah! Okay lah, I know it's too late to share my raya story but better late than never, right?

My raya was okay lah. Nothing special kecuali si pakcik Meatball balik and currently enjoying his holiday *envy* And please don't ask why gambar tak banyak. Little brother's camera tak siap service, lagi ler takde mood nak bergambar. Tak tipu punya. Don't know lah why this year punya raya macam kelam jak tapi ada satu benda yang tak pernah dan tak akan dilupakan walau sekelam mana pun perasaan tuh :') *self reminder

Zakat! Thanks abah who still paid for it. Can't imagine if one day abah is no longer able to pay it for me. Hopefully tak lupa dengan kewajipan yang satu nih. InsyaAllah.


Pembuka raya. Makan sikit sebab nak gerak dah ke rumah nenek. Again, don't ask where is the picture. Sempat ambil gambar dengan auntie jak because by the time I arrived there, most of my cousins are ready to visited our late grandfather's kubur. Al-fatihah :(

While waiting for the cousins. Pagi raya dah buat clinic bergerak. Kau ada? Ahah!

Normal thing for me. Seolah-olah highway nih aku yang punya! Kau nak merempit pun bolehh :p Ahah! Beginilah kalau beraya kat bandar. Bak kata Spongy, I've to find future husband who is originally NOT from KL/Selangor. LOL :p

Part of my cousins and nieces. Besar dah memasing. Dah pandai nak bergaya. Kalah kakak-kakak tau :p And since I arrived to my dad's hometown at late evening, no picture with my other cousins. So sad :( Yelah,  siblings and relatives abah ramai yang stay kat kampung so sekali pegi kena visit semua rumah. Mana sempat nak bergambar dengan cousin.

Malamnya pergi beraya dekat rumah pakcik. Cousins semua dah tukar 'uinform' so no picture. Again. Yang ada cuma this snack yang rasa macam kacang tumbuk but way nicer that Malaysia's kacang tumbuk. Oh, this one is from Mecca. Sedapp!


Esoknya balik Tanjung Karang. Kira routine lah every year harus pergi. Adalah dalam 3 or 4 houses. Yang best kalau balik sini is almost rumah mesti served makanan. Dekat rumah kakak angkat abah dapat makan nugget, rumah nenek Nab dapat makan mee sup, lontong dengan nasi lemak. Rumah nenek Yam dapat makan laksa. Alhamdulilah. 

Before balik tuh sempat singgah sawah padi. Biasalah, budak bandar :')

Something that KL didn't offer to you :')

Our theme of the day - POLKA DOT! Ahah! Tak plan okay!


Esoknya pergi beraya dekat Hulu Langat or I named the place as 'rumah nenek Sungai Congkak' but before that, singgah makan KFC since tekak dan perut memasing dah tak boleh nak terima ketupat rendang dah.

I really missed this place. I mean, Sungai Congkak. The place where I always went during my childhood day. Really wish my kampung will stay like this :( No drastic development.

Anyway, masa beraya kat sini ada rezeki makan lauk kampung yang sangat simple! 


She so lucky!!!


Not to forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Shindong! Have a great and blessed birthday. Love ya, always! ^^


Just in case you miss me, cakk! :p

Lamanya tak menulis panjang! Banyak benda nak share tapi masa pulak tak mengizinkan. Ada jak halangan, nak-nak sekarang nih meatball balik holiday. Lagilah panjang langkah kita orang. Takpelah, sementara dia kat Malaysia nih, berjalan sakanlah. Nanti dia dah balik Germany, kena tunggu LAMAAAAA lagi baru dia balik. Hihi :p

Anyway, here is the latest picture of me. This was on my way to Seremban, last week for Ayyen's birthday party.

In case you miss me! Ahahah! *you know who you are*